Where is your attention?

    

    My cat knows something is up.  I am getting things ready to go to my daughter's for her wedding this weekend.  I am cleaning, preparing, doing laundry, making sure things are in order.  We live in a small space, so my cat, Jasmine, knows where I am most of the time.  She lost track of me this morning and I saw her walking into my bedroom pensively, ears twitching, listening, looking, wondering.  I called to her and she came running, meowing, tail straight up, as if to say, "I thought you were gone."  I was close all the time.  This is how I feel sometimes when I am not connected with my Creator.  I have a moment of panic, fear takes over and the mind starts it chattering.  And then I stop, listen, breathe and feel.  Sometimes it takes more than that, I rant and rave first, frustration ringing out from me, only to hear a quiet prodding, "I'm here, I never left, you just let your attention go in a different direction."
     We have all felt human disconnection at one time or another, or a multitudes of times; the first time your mother leaves without you, your child's first day away from you, a friend moves away, your lover goes on a trip.  We like being connected as social media has so well shown.  But in the end, who are we really trying to connect with?  Are the disconnections in our lives a way to show us that although the person we are missing may be not in our physical presence, we always have a deeper connection with something else that is much more glorious?