Almost everyday for the last three weeks I have done a daily meditation. The days I do not meditate, I feel a difference, I am out of sorts, life seems a little rougher. Yesterday morning I did not meditate. There was a little chaos at the house, and I did not seem to be able to find the 15 minutes of alone time I needed before I headed to work. I guess I could have sat in my car before work and done it, but the thought did not cross my mind until right now. At work, things seemed jumbled, frustrations were many. I find when I meditate, the frustrations do not bother me as much. I can accept them for what they are, tiny distractions of time that take peace from me. I had to laugh when a moment of "angst" showed up, and I reprimanded myself for not taking the time to meditate. It reminded of when my son was in kindergarten and he was always getting his "bunny" hopped. This was not a good thing. After much yelling, scolding and punishment; which none seemed to work, we started praying the Rosary on the way to school. It was a twenty minute drive, so we usually got through the first section. It seemed to help. One day, for reasons I do not remember, we did not say the Rosary. He got his bunny hopped. When I picked him up from school, he remarked, "I got my bunny hopped today because we didn't pray." We then had a discussion of self responsibility, that he was always responsible for his actions, whether I prayed with him or not, and that he also always had the option to pray, silently if he needed to. I wish this talk had been the end of it, but he got his bunny hopped many times more, and still does only in different ways.
We all want that magic feather that Dumbo had. That magic pill that will help us lose weight, that lottery winning that will pay all our bills, that true love that will take away our loneliness. There is not one, I've tried. Meditation to me is not a magic pill, all my problems do not "magically" go away because I meditate, but I do seem to be able to see situation from a different perspective, and approach situations with a much better understanding of what is happening, coming from a place of strength and peace rather than pain and fear.
My taking 15 minutes everyday to sit down with myself, for myself, for no other reason than to connect with the eternal Source that is always with me, is my gift to myself. And by doing so I reap the benefits of peace, joy, calm and others reap those benefits too. It is a continuous process, this me trying to figure out Me. Everyday is new chapter, and the story just keeps getting better and better!
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