Irritation

    

 There are people in my life that irritate me.  I recently had a situation where the person I was around was really grating on my last nerve and then they did a little action that really set me off.  I stormed off.  I said a little snide remark as I walked away just for dramatics, but I am sure it made no difference to them.  The situation continued to haunt me, playing over and over in my head, even though I tried my best to think other thoughts. I did do quite a few Meta meditations on this person- "May you be happy, may you be healthy, may you be safe, may you live your life with ease", as well as on myself until my mind quieted down. I finally decided to dissect the situation.  I was berating myself because if this person made me so mad about something that really made no difference in my life at all, how was I able to love and accept those who were very different from me, with different colors, languages and customs.  After all, I promote peace and love all the time, reposting positive affirmations; "We are all one", "Forgiveness is the key", "Love is the answer", and many more.  As I continued on this train of thought, I realized I was more upset at myself than the other person.  I had allowed myself the feeling of "How dare you", but then I started thinking about my Creator.  In my mind, my Creator loves all life, no ifs, ands or buts.  No matter the circumstance.  My Creator created this person, or there was co-creation, this soul and the Creator.  In that line of thought, then it was this soul's purpose to be this personality, to experience life in their way, not my way.  Mind blowing, at least for me.  The key word for me was personality.  I was not appreciating or accepting the way this person chose to live their life, I was not accepting the Creator was enjoying this personality.  Just because I was not enjoying it, does not mean someone else was not.  Heady stuff, at least for me.  I understand a little more about myself, this being said, it does not mean I will go out of my way to be around this person, they still annoy me, but an understanding is there now that I can only see getting bigger and bigger and love replacing judgement, one experience at a time.