3 Weeks

  

    It is week 3 of our year in an apartment.  I have tried to break the time into days or months but they both seem so daunting, weeks seem much less.  It is just how my brain works.  Our house in Bulverde is still on the market, we did receive one offer but is was so insulting and as this is our "Move to Colorado" money, we are not willing to budge too much.  That is the plan.  A year here, and then Colorado.  I have been trying to move to Colorado for 5 years now and knowing that every day I am closer and closer to that goal keeps me going.  Why Colorado?  My Soul soars there.  I feel at home.  Not an easy task for a military brat that went to 13 different schools and has moved 20+ times.  I am ready to settle down and make peace with myself.  Plus I can breathe in Colorado.  When I am there on vacation, I take deep breath after deep breath and my Spirit is renewed.  It will happen.      
     I have taken a part-time job in a tasting room.  They are in need of a tasting room manager, which was my position at my last two jobs, but I have not been quick to apply.  I have told them I am more than capable of doing the job and helping their business grow, but I am not sure I want to fall into the same trap as my previous jobs where I worked my can off for someone else's success.  It is a constant daily battle for me not to act as a manager.  It is what I do, but I also remind myself they are not paying me to be a manager and as most companies, although I do not think they do it intentionally, they will abuse the situation until the situation no longer exists.  I am setting boundaries early, trying not to repeat the same mistakes over and over again.  This part of my life is about changes that I choose to make.  Which includes respecting who I am, what I am worth and allowing the best into my life.