Wednesday, August 16, 2017

2 Yellowjackets

     Two days ago,  I was stung by 2 yellowjackets.  The day had not started out that rosy.  I woke up in a bad mood. I don’t know why, maybe I had a bad dream and just didn’t remember the dream.  Anyway, all morning I was grouchy.  Nothing in particular to be grouchy about.  I had made arrangements to go to my Mom and Dad’s at around 3pm.  I reluctantly took a shower around 2, I almost called to cancel, but they needed my help to fix something on my dad’s computer, so I pressed on.  I took the garbage out to the apartment trash cans and on my way to my car, I hesitated.  I had told my dad I would write his life story and the thought came to me that I should go back to the apartment and get my laptop, but I talked myself out of it, saying to myself that I was not in the mood to type, I didn’t know how long it was going to take for me to fix his computer problem, so I turned towards my car.  As I put my hand on the driver’s door, I felt a sting on my right ear and then immediately on my right hand.  I dropped my keys and purse and ran away about 10 feet.  I knew I had been stung, and was very pissed.  I looked around to see if I could see where they came from, did not, so picked up my purse and keys and walked back to my apartment crying.  Oh, I did apologize to the lady that was talking on her phone outside her apartment door, as quite a few expletives had come from my mouth.  I immediately looked for Benadryl, but could not find it, and then remembered it was still in my overnight bag from our recent vacation.  Although most times I have not had allergic reactions to stings, there have been two times I have, so I always take a Benadryl just in case.  I also pulled out my Lavender and Thieves essential oil and put them on the two stings.  I called my mother and told her I had been stung and may not make it, depending on how the Benadryl reacted.  I then got my can of wasp spray, found the nest and proceeded to kill them all.  I advised the apartment manager, and she said she would have maintenance check out the rest of the carport.  She also made the comment that the yellowjackets had been bad this year.  My thought was, well then you need to be a little more diligent about checking the carports.  After about 30 minutes, the Benadryl was working, and although the stings hurt, the swelling was staying local so I headed over to fix the computer.  It took me about an hour and half.  I am far from being a computer expert, and trying to find out from my dad what he wanted and then trying to explain the difference between a server and application was a little frustrating, but we got through it.

     I don’t blame the yellowjackets.  They were just doing what yellowjackets do.  Making a home and defending it.  I cannot help but think if I had been in a better mood, or had listened to my intuition and gone back to the apartment, I would have seen the nest before they saw me as I would have been coming from a different angle.  I also thought to myself as I drove home from my parents, that maybe, just maybe, there was much more going on here.  I didn’t listen the first time when my intuition said to go back to the apartment, so another plan had to happen.  Maybe the Universe or whomever takes care of such stuff kept me from being in an accident.  I know better, I should always listen to my intuition, because when I don’t, something happens that I don’t much care for.  I cannot go so far as to be grateful for the stings, but I can be grateful that something much bigger than me is looking out for me and has my best interest at heart.  

Thursday, August 10, 2017

The Black Crow

     Yesterday while I was swimming, a black crow landed upon the pool gate.  I stopped to admire him, different shades of dark purple and black.  I continued watching him and started sending love his way.  He turned and looked at me for a moment and then went back to whatever crows do while sitting on a gate, probably looking for food.  I continued to watch him until he swooped to the ground to find some tasty morsel.  I wondered if he (or she) had felt the love I had sent their way.  As I was walking back to my apartment, I started laughing at how much joy that crow had given me, but had I been a farmer and he was in my cornfield, how different I would have felt.
     This morning while swimming, a black crow flew to the concrete next to the pool.  I again stopped swimming, watched and sent love, wondering if it was the same crow, and had it felt me and come for more love?  The crow took a couple of sips from water that had gotten into the concrete cracks and I continued to watch it.  As soon as my attention was taken from somewhere else, the crow flew off.  It got me to wondering, why do we visit the same places over and over?  Is it the familiarity, a feeling that we get when we visit, thinking of some long ago memory of how we felt when we visited before?  There is so much to this big wide world, but I find myself always visiting the same 5 blocks.  The same grocery stores, same coffee shops etc.  Yes, it is convenient for me, and I do dislike driving around town in traffic, but I guess not so much so that I live out in the boonies.  I used to.  I remember when the kids were smaller, we lived outside of Fredericksburg about 20 minutes, and on rainy days, I would take them to the local Wal-Mart.  It was before they made it a Super one.  We would get a pretzel and drink and go up and down the aisles, and I would let them play with the toys a little while, usually letting them each pick out a small one to take home. The Wal-Mart had sky lights, so even though it was rainy outside, it was still brighter than our trailer house, and it gave us something to do,
     Something to do.  What does that mean?  We feel so compelled in our existence to "do" something, to be remembered, to try and ensure that our moment in this space and time is noted by somebody, something.  I do not know why I had the feeling to send the crow love.  And maybe it was sending me love and I was so enjoying it, I got the opinion that I was the one doing it.  And it was a moment between us, the crow and me.  Where did the love come from?  Me?  The crow?  Does it matter?  I have to believe that the Love was permeating around us, that Love is the Creator, the creation, all in one, and I for a brief moment in time and space, captured the frequency of Love and allowed it to move inside me and then let it go on its merry way.  If only I could live each moment bathed in this Love, and yet I am, I am just not aware of it, so my prayer, my invocation, my song would be to always be aware of the Love that permeates within me and all around me.